Constantly questioning. Never settled.
Always wanting to know what’s next or if we made the right choice.
“Am I doing alright?”
When will I find the right lover? Is the lover I’m with the right one? Should I get married? Now that I’m married did I make the right choice? Should I leave or stick it out? Was staying the right decision? I don’t know if I should have left…
No, no… I’m content with my lover… BUT-
Is this the right career for me? I’m not happy doing what I’m doing. What else should I do? Should I quit or should I stay? Was staying the right choice? What should I do now?
“Am I doing alright?”
No, no… I’m happy with my lover and career… BUT-
Should we rent or buy? Should we move away or stay close to family? Should we have a family? Are we raising our children right? Vaccinate or not? Dairy or gluten?
“Am I doing alright?”
I Should, should I?… Lots of “should’s” in our lives…
A lot of standing in the middle of the road, looking back, looking forward. Our eyes squint with concern at the questions that rattle around in our brains. We look down at open palms searching for answers that never seem to ease our minds. We raise our eyes to the sky praying for a sign…
Never settled.
Should I do more, should I have done less … Should I do less? Should I have done more?
“Am I doing alright?”
Past, future; future, past…
Yet here you stand, and your life is passing fast.
“How did I get here?”
You may ask yourself this question one day, when you in the midst of your life. Surrounded by all the creations of your decisions. Life unfolding all around you, while your making decisions and questioning your choices.
Breath. Feel the air as it fills your lungs reminding you, that you are alive.
Laugh! As the air escapes your lips, knowing we take ourselves to seriously.
Smile. You are human, and you’re doing the best you can with what you have learned.
Love. Yourself and all those around you, you never know how long we’ll be here.
Forgive. Yourself and your enemy, for they are human to.
Accept. Everything, for you can not undo what is done.
Sigh. Knowing everything is perfect, looking at how far you have come.
Breath. Feel the air as it fills your lungs reminding you, that it is not yet your time.
And to your question… “Yes my loves, you are doing just fine.”
Write back soon, love Annie.
Day 80 of 90 meditating… I’m going to go outside and enjoy the sun.
It’s amazing the way you keep coming up with these different ways of looking at life! I liked the mystical background sound in the audio. Instead of saying the word, sigh, it might have been cool just to hear you express a sigh with a long, deep breath. And finally, selfie?
Thanks Tom! And yes! Lol, I will incorporate a selfie next post!! 😉